To be completely honest, I don’t know

To be completely honest, I don't know.

I don't know what's on the other side of these growing pains or why our hearts always seem to break (open) in the strangest ways at what feels like the worst (possible) time.

And I don't know about you, but I'm over here just trying to breathe through it.

I'm trying to accept the unexpected with an ocean of patience and an ounce of fierce grace.

I'm trying to be present and listen to life when it feels a thousand times easier to tune out or shut down.

I'm trying to let my tears flow and become a soft place for these (boundless) waves of grief to land.

I'm trying to find the beginning in every end.

Last night as I listened to an old BQH session recording, I felt my Higher Self's contagious laughter wash over me for the first time in years.

I chuckled as I was reminded that more often than not, we tirelessly obsess over things we simply don't need to know. We question, doubt, and worry our way through the darkest nights when the only light we actually need to guide us home is a willingness to trust the inexplicable unfolding of life and soften into the unknown.

There's so much we don't (and may never) know, and that's okay.

And with that, I send you my love and wish you a brave, trusting heart as you navigate the messy (human) transitions and cosmic surprises knocking on your door.

May we hold each other close as we surrender (inch by inch) into the coming night.

- j 💙💚